Wednesday, October 27, 2010 ' 9:22:00 PM
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Thursday, August 26, 2010 ' 9:00:00 PM
*Droolsssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssss!Dhiyana
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Thursday, August 19, 2010 ' 12:17:00 AM
Happy 10th Monthsary Dearestlove!
First of all i would like to thank you, for not giving up on me no matter what i have done so far, even when i asked for a separate ways or a time off. I know it doesn't exist in your dictionary when i say i need a time off, but sometimes i do need some space for myself to be alone. Please don't get the wrong idea.
I’m sorry for being rude to you most of the times, making you teared for me when we fought. I’m sorry for the constant shouting and beating in publics creating nuisance.
I’m sorry for giving you the face and attitude to make you give in to me all the time, even when i treat you as a punching bag to release my emotions.
You know I love you so much to let you go even when i can't take it any longer.
I’m sorry for the constant screaming and heartbreaking words I gave.
I'm sorry to bring back your past to create fights. ( I hate _________! )
I'm just too much! (I know right)
When I reflect back how I’ve been treating you all this while, I broke down, simply because, I don’t deserve someone like you. Am i right d?
In my eyes, you are the most wonderful guy I’ve ever met, so do other girls that you've been with, says the same thing. Hmmms.
I don’t know if you’re being flirtatious or cheating on me behind my back, but just so you know, you’ve changed me in many ways.
I hate my past, so do you, i'm changing into a better person slowly, alhamdullilah.
I don’t deserve being treated so nicely when all these while, I’ve been screaming, blaming, shouting my fucking hearts out, beating, being such a bitch to you.
I’m sorry, I love you. Everything happens for a reason.
I'm tired with everything including myself. It's very hard for me to express it here, because I guess some things are meant to be kept inside. I feel like doing nothing but just lay in my bed, staring at the empty spaces. I'm all numb and how would you feel when you're trapped inside a dark room without any light in sight? It's all about that now.
I know I'm never enough. Yes I've been having low self-esteem lately. No confidence, and I'm so full of insecurities. I know I shouldn't drag along my self-esteem in it,
because it would eventually make me feel even worse but I'm dealing with one bad news after another. I don't even know what to do next because I'm just so speechless of what's going on now. I'm just lost and in need of a light.
Thank you for being with me through the thick and thin even we are just months together.
Ps: "I'm still here waiting for you?" Aren't you ashamed at all? Hahaha!
With love,
Dhiyana.
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